I'm puzzled. It just seems wierd how I can console someone, while being totally helpless at helping myself. Just now, while talking to Ali, I was reminded of the times he felt helpless and lost, and I was there to console him. It took me alot of effort to open back, the folder of all my past conversations in MSN.

26.8.2005 *
I remembered the time, just a few months ago, how I cried my eyes out. How Ernie stood by me. How I couldn't emcee for the show, due to my tears. How I broke down every single time I looked up to the control room. The fact that life was unfair to me. Remembered how Ernie hugged me, how she encouraged me, eventhough she was facing problems of her own.

I've never been so hurt before. Never. The pain, was so fresh, the wound will never go away. But, like a line I told Ali back then when he was facing probs, I said , "Whatever happens, sumer ader hikmahnya." How true. I actually got over him. Finally, after months, I've closed the pages to that chapter. In fact, I've closed the book.

Everyday, I prayed to God, that He will close the doors of my heart, to him, or any other guy. I simply did not want to fall for anyone, anymore. He answered half of my prayers. I did fell for someone new. We're friends, but sometimes, just behave like we're more than that. And that's the way things will be. It'll stay that way.

Because, sometimes, life's easier on your part, when you're just friends with that special someone. An innocent relationship is better. Like childhood memories, I wanna keep it sweet, special and non-hurtful. And just being friends is the only way I can do that.

to her,

tak sengaja nak bring up that incident. i truly got over it. seriously. jangan feel hurt okeh. it's just a part of my life. you do mean alot to me, so just lupekan sume tuh okeh. =]

ayn bani complexite dynn erdiah ekah fizah jass joyce maz matt nisa nette raz yaya



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